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“Where Was God?” | Finding Faith Through Pain and Trauma

Monday, January 19, 2026

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In this deeply personal episode of From Behind This Chair, Anthony “Doc” Hamilton opens the door to questions many people are afraid to ask out loud: Where was God when I was being beaten? When I felt unloved? When I was sure I wouldn’t make it? Joined by men who believe, Doc and his guests reflect on trauma, doubt, resilience, loss, and the slow, unfinished journey toward belief. This is not a sermon. It’s a confession. A conversation about faith that survives anger, grief, and unanswered questions and the kind of belief that’s forged not in certainty, but in endurance.

Chapters

  1. 00:00Opening, early struggles with faith
  2. 01:41Topic, God and religion
  3. 03:23Violence at home and a chaotic father
  4. 04:40Singing through the pain
  5. 05:11Finding purpose in hardship
  6. 06:54Parenting pressure and spillover
  7. 07:41A changed perspective
  8. 08:18Belief, grief, and loss
  9. 10:36Growing up Apostolic
  10. 11:24“Where is God?” after loss
  11. 14:23Hearing the prognosis
  12. 16:14Reconciling loss with faith
  13. 18:39Choosing to believe
  14. 19:44Trusting God’s plan
  15. 20:03Praising despite harm
  16. 23:56Anthony’s resilience and impact
  17. 29:15Defying odds, writing a book
  18. 30:08Confronting a former teacher
  19. 32:19“Don’t laugh, teach me to read”
  20. 32:47Closing and thank you
  21. 34:26Like, share, subscribe

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